ArawnGoddessOfWar
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My fiancee spends most of his days with his female roomate "helping" her. He is always evasive as to what they are doing and where they are going, and he never gives me a straight answer when I ask him about it. When he's on the phone with her, which it seems is all the time while he's with me, he tells me to be quiet. But whenever I call him while he's with her, she's always going off at the mouth talking to him in the backround, and he responds to her, even if I ask him something, he pays more attention to her. He says she is ugly and unattractive and he's always cracking jokes about her, but sometimes it seems as if that's a cover-up. She's not his best friend or anything like that, because if she were, I think I could handle that. I don't know, maybe I'm being insecure, but he's spends more of his time with her when he's not working than he does with me, it seems sometimes. Maybe I'm just losing it, maybe I need a guy's perspective here. I don't know anymore. I love him so much, and I don't want to lose him, or push him away with my accusations, so I always keep quiet. Is it me? I mean, he says I'm the most beautiful woman he's ever been with, and doesn't see why I am with him, but he's everything that I want. I just feel like he's pulling away from me, and it scares me. Help me out here guys and girls, am I losing it, or is what I'm feeling valid in some way? SHould I run away screaming....or????

It figures, that yet again, my sister forgets about me. I just wish she would stop making promises and would just forget that I ever even existed. I wish she would think of herself as an only child, oh wait, that's how she acts now most of the time anyway. I just want her to leave me alone, because I'm tired of believing in her and trusting her. I hate crying when she would rather spend time with her damned friends then her only sister. Which she calls other friends of her's "sister". I want to go back to the way things were, when she would ignore me completly and not even speak to me, that was better then how she treats me know. I mean, shit, she acts like my best goddamned friend, and then turns around and acts like she doesn't know me. WTF? Seriously.... I'm done, I'm tired of it. Oh well, it figures. Atleast I have one sister who still gives a damn about me ( even though she isn't my blood, she acts like she is).