NiBBler
08-08-2009, 08:41 AM
I am terrified. I have another friend in the hospital with unexplained abdominal pain. Pain severe enough that she is on Morphine. Her illness came on suddenly and is brutal. The doctors have checked the following: appendix, kidneys, uterus, ovaries, intestines, liver, etc. They can find nothing. The next step is exploratory surgery.
I spent several hours with her yesterday. During that time I helped her to the bathroom. While dragging IV lines, holding her gown shut, and trying to get in and out of the bathroom she stopped me with these words. "If anything happens to me, do not let it make you any crazier than you are." as she laughed. "I believe your insanity over the last few years has been caused by grief. You have lost too many people that you love. I don't want to be part of that. Be strong for my children." This statement hit me in my gut. I cannot lose her. She has been my friend for 25 years. She is my sister in my heart.
For those who know me, you know what this leads me to believe. I am terrified to say it or to think it but the thought is screaming out at me. Cancer. The big bad ugly C. This disease has taken friends from me before leaving their families and myself in anguish. I can only hope that it is only my fear that is overwhelming my thoughts with this and not precognition.
For those of you who believe in prayers, please pray for her and her family. For those of you who do not, offer up some positive vibes ,burn incense or something and wish her well. She is only 41 and has 2 small children ages 6 and 9. She is not allowed to die yet.
I spent several hours with her yesterday. During that time I helped her to the bathroom. While dragging IV lines, holding her gown shut, and trying to get in and out of the bathroom she stopped me with these words. "If anything happens to me, do not let it make you any crazier than you are." as she laughed. "I believe your insanity over the last few years has been caused by grief. You have lost too many people that you love. I don't want to be part of that. Be strong for my children." This statement hit me in my gut. I cannot lose her. She has been my friend for 25 years. She is my sister in my heart.
For those who know me, you know what this leads me to believe. I am terrified to say it or to think it but the thought is screaming out at me. Cancer. The big bad ugly C. This disease has taken friends from me before leaving their families and myself in anguish. I can only hope that it is only my fear that is overwhelming my thoughts with this and not precognition.
For those of you who believe in prayers, please pray for her and her family. For those of you who do not, offer up some positive vibes ,burn incense or something and wish her well. She is only 41 and has 2 small children ages 6 and 9. She is not allowed to die yet.